Week 6 weigh in

700 grams down and I'm under the 210 pound mark...small victory! Hoping that next week will see me in the bottom half of the 90's.

Been noticing that eating smaller portions and making good choices is getting easier. Another weekend on my own coming up so hopefully I can keep it going.

Week 5 weigh in

I did it! The 500 grams that came back last week are gone again. Back under the 96 kg mark - yay! Must remember to look at my postings and diary for this week when feeling disheartened as I've managed to lose this while still being very social and I only exercised once. I made some great food choices and it's shown on the scales...thank goodness!

So proud of myself

Am home from my work trip and I'm so proud of myself and the willpower I found while away. I turned down the offer of going out for a late dinner one night and got my sauce on the side, left fries on my plate and declined desert the second night. I also only had one plate at the breakfast buffet - the old me would have been too worried about what others thought to do any of this and not only did I do it but it wasn’t hard!

I am so excited that I had the inner strength to do this – I'm finally starting to develop the good habits I’ll need to succeed long term.

Breaking into a jog

I went for a 6.4km walk yesterday and my legs are really feeling it today. Which is great - I do practically zero exercise but I do like the reminder of calories burned for the next day or so 'post exertion'. And don't tell anyone but there was even a point where I broke into a jog just to see what it would feel like. I think the answer is 'jiggly'.

I also did really well with food choices over the weekend despite attending a housewarming, going out to dinner with a friend and spending Sunday by myself with only the TV and fridge for company. Am away for work over the next couple of days - need to find the strength to not pig out at the breakfast buffet!

Week 4 weigh in

I shouldn't be surprised - half a kilo back on this week and I can't gasp in horror pretending I don't know why.

Nevermind - food diary obsession is back and I'm determined that this 500 grams won't be there next week.

Time to get back on the horse

I've been in a complete funk since last Thursday and my food choices (and consumption thereof) have reflected this. And the really dumb thing is that I could tell that bad food in = bad mood out but still I kept going and even stopped updating my food diary. 

This morning I woke up in a better frame of mind and I'm determined that I will not give in on the long term goal. I may see a gain on the scales this week but that will be Ok. I can lose it next week or the week after - imagine if I did nothing and kept eating crap for the next year? It would be worse than failing a diet. I would be failing myself.

Letting food win

I let a bad day get the best of me yesterday and completely gave in to the food demons. My project at work has more things broken than working and I'd only seen a 200 gram loss in the morning. Why bother? I had taken my lunch into work but cooked too much rice - thought I'd leave some behind but ate it all and felt very content afterwards.

Couldn't be bothered thinking about dinner and suggested chinese takeout when asked and stuffed myself full of chicken chow mein, sweet and sour pork and combination fried rice.

To top it off I managed to reach the box of FLIPZ on the top of the pantry and had some for desert. Still in a funk today so can't claim to be back in the saddle just yet...bring on the weekend.

Week 3 weigh in

This morning the scales finally dipped under 96kg but only just. A 200 gram loss feels pathetic. Even when converted it's less than half a pound. I should be pleased - a loss is a loss right? Am tagging this with success but it really doesn't feel like it.

Carrot on the end of the stick

The 'experts' recommend setting small targets to help you feel like you're achieving something when you're still soooo far away from your end goal. And let's face it, I love playing with spreadsheets so any excuse for a calculation! Here we go...

Target	Achievement	Reward
93	5% loss	Flowers
90	Under 200lbs	D cleans my car
88	10% loss	Massage
86	Under 190lbs	Flowers
83	15% loss	Book the Tattoo!
80	BMI = 30	New Lingerie
80	Maintain for month	Order new laptop!

It's at this point I have to remind myself that this blog is to keep me accountable and not meant to inspire others...'cause lets face it, this is pretty lame.

I'd kill for a poached egg

After straying from the path and inhaling so many calories at lunch (see Accidents can happen) you’d think I wouldn’t need dinner. But I’m starving. I don’t want to make matters worse by giving up on today entirely - the peanut butter can stay in the pantry.

What I really want is a silky poached egg. I tried to cook one but I think the eggs are past it – total disaster. Which makes me want one even more. Preferably glazed with hollandaise sauce next to a couple of bacon rashers…argh! However I am determined that I can still eat healthy when I’m alone. Thanks for listening. Time to stare at the fridge some more.

Accidents can happen

I had my first food fumble today. A colleague and I went to the pub for a celebratory lunch and while I managed to request no cheese on my burger I then proceeded to eat every last crispy fried chunky chip off my plate. So much for stopping at half. A quick calorie tally back at my desk showed the true horror of what I had done. Gulp.

I confessed to D via text and got the most awesome reply “...honey remember the Sixx AM song it’s not your whole life it’s just 1 day”. He’s referencing the Sixx:A.M. song Accidents Can Happen and if you don’t know it – have a listen below. It is of course about drug and alcohol addiction but applies equally to those of us fighting an obsession with food. Thanks D, that’s just what I needed to hear.

Week 2 weigh in

Another 800 grams gone this week. 'Poof' never to be seen again. Feeling like my engine is well tuned at the moment.

I can sense the edge of hunger creeping in when I'm just about to fall asleep and by the morning it's well and truly tapping it's foot waiting for breakfast. And yet there are few times that I'm actually hungry when I shouldn't be. Early days yet but great motivation to keep going!